A Message from Archangel Jophiel.

A Message from Archangel Jophiel..

Musings to return to later

1. Spatial and mental clearance -my aha this morning
2. Forgiveness and mental clearance-the aha from yesterday
3. Becca’s solution to free up feeling under organized –
4. I love you just the way you are now can you just stop trying to “fix me” I am not broken
5. Cheerleaders Anonymous

I started working on my fear buster team this morning.  Rhonda Britten suggests writing down family and friends.  Once I wrote my list I realized I rarely call on family for friends when I am feeling vunerable or on my wheel of fear.   On the plus side I have been gently releasing persons from who were not supportive of me and who I can no longer support.  I am magnetized and cultivating new friends. 

Forgiveness

Forgiveness was a bit of a mystery to me for much of my life.  I forgave and forgave and it was often to the detriment of myself because usually forgiving you meant I was going to blame myself for not being the person I thought I was supposed to be.  Are you scratching your head thinking “hmm that feels  really convuluted.”  My definition of convuluted is “not making  logical sense, knotted up, twisted, tangled up so yes it was a very convuluted way of handling forgiveness.

  I was a closet, secret “unforgiver.’  I kept tabs of every unkind word or action.  It was my amunition for the day you drew the straw that  broke the camel’s back.  Then I was going to whip out my can of Whoop Ass: the Shame Edition and regurgitate.  More often than not, I was the target of the reguritation. 

My new paradigm is Forgiveness is for me.  God doesn’t forgive because God doesn’t judge.  Us humans? Not so much. We judge therefore we have plenty of opportunities to forgive.  Then the question for me became how do I know when I have truely forgiven someone?  The answer: when that person can walk through my mind unharmed.  Did  they come up with that answer just for me, Ms. Closet Unforgiver?  The spiritual me is all about forgiveness.  The human me, the me that has been storing all those resentments is still holding to some really old, stinky, toxic amunition. 

Today’s download on forgiveness comes from Life Coach Rhonda Britten – Fearless Living, Fearless Loving, Change Your Life In 30 days, Does This Make Me look Fat? 

 The person I most have problems forgiving is me.  My mental picture was “I’m sorry I’m not _____ so it is perfectly logical that you feel it is right to crap on me.  Shifting my paradigm has been met with some resistance on my part.  Rhonda Britten spoke of this on her tele conference- Sometimes we  beat ourselves up when we are stuck in a place of unforgiveness.  As long as we keep working on it by doing self-affirmative actions – we are loosening it up and eventually we will be released.  Wow!  Thats so much better than how about some pharmaceutical assistance.

Namaste

Rebecca

I released and let go a job and occupation that was no longer serving me and I was no longer serving.   What you don’t hear in that sentence is the 25 year relationship I had with my occupation.    What was my occupation?  Funny I should ask myself this;  25 years and I never once truely owned my livelihood.   I was a human service case manager.  I had stints in mental health, SAMI and Child Welfare.  I never took the relationship further- wouldn’t or couldn’t commit to getting an M.S.W.  I wouldn’t step up to supervision.    I was unfaithful.  Every few years I would have an affair.   Guilt plagued me.  I knew in my heart I was beating a dead horse.   It was when I realized the only battle going on was in my head and heart I was able to say this is enough:  I am leaving you.   I wish the best for you,  Yoiu are perfect just the way you are.  Namaste  Rebecca Meigs.

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